Thursday, February 19, 2009

Romeo take me somewhere we can be alone.

I want to say this:

William is a fictional character I am working on. He brings me happiness when I write about him because he is my creation. I write because it gives happiness, not something that diamonds or pearls can bring me. It breaks my heart when I see people out there who have everything. Gwen Stefani, Christina Aguilera, Britney Spears, Paris Hilton, and my favourite, the Olsen twins. What is there in this world that you can possibly want more of? You found your talent so leave the rest of us to find ours.
I can honestly name a whole list of celebrities/actors/musicians that have a whole empire of things. You are talented for the thing you do; the rest is just based on your fame. I am not saying I won’t go a bit crazy if I am ever famous, or at least have the amount of attention or fortune you have, but you should know when enough is enough. You can not have everything in this world. It seems everyone is writing a book, creating a perfume, clothing and accessory line. It seems everyone has been an actor. It seems everyone wants their own singing career and it seems that everyone wants everything.
I love Dancing, I love singing, I love drawing, I love clothes and I love writing. But it would be a bit selfish of me to have all these things as a career. Pick the one you want the most, the one you feel you will make a difference in and do it. Do the thing you most love and kick ass at it, rather being a selfish celebrity that doesn’t know what they want.
Pick a hobby then create your talent.

Sorry about the vent, but I am so sick of questioning myself of things I really want, then there are you guys who take everything and don’t even care. I studied myself, questioned myself and found the thing I most love, the thing I am most talented at and the thing that makes me happy. I will do this, you can stomp on my feet all you like my friends, but I will kick you in the face when you do. I will be great a writer. Maybe then, I might grab a singing career and a fashion line on my way to starbucks.
P.S, I do want to be a great writer, but there are other things I would love to do. I am not saying just take only one thing. The world is big. Explore it.
You can have everything, just not all at once. Take time and pride in doing things you love; you can’t have two slices of cake at once, finish the first slice then go back seconds.
Yum. Cake.

It has taken me forever to create my world. There are people in my head that have conversations, I can see them, I feel what they feel, they use my mouth to speak their words that I write on paper, they are real to me even though they may not be real to you, someday they will. They will have a place on your bedside table by your lamp and reading glasses, they will be the last people to talk to you before you go to sleep and if you are addicted to them like I am; you will be looking forward until you can spend some time with them again. They will make you feel sad, make you want to cry but then they will make you want to smile and laugh. They are my creations and my world as of now. They might not be as famous as you but someday I will be able to look them in the eyes and say “I am proud of us”

Ever since I can remember I have been asking myself what I am going to do with my life, I knew since I was five that I never wanted an office job, nor did I want to be stuck at a supermarket, I never wanted a job that I wasn’t going to be happy in. I knew that but that’s all I knew.
I have files and files of poems, lyrics, letters, short stories and single paragraphs and lines of things I just wrote for the sake of keeping me sane. This is what I do, It is my life.

I am just waiting for the stars to part, for the moon to fall and for the sun to shine on a new tomorrow, a tomorrow that will be mine, and only mine when I have successfully published my books, when the right guy is found and when I have everything I am ever going to need for the future.
My book has plenty of heart breaks, just like my life. I have never been in love, but that doesn’t mean I don’t know what it is like to fall asleep crying because the guy you adore is with another girl. This guy has been the main inspiration. I use my happiness when I am around him to feel what Kikki feels when she is happy, I use my sorrow when he is not with me and with another girl when Kikki feels heartbreak.

Romeo take me somewhere we can be alone.
I'll be waiting, all there's left to do is run
You'll be the prince and I'll be the princess,
It's a lovestroy , baby just say YES.

I can only hope one day I will have a castle, and I will be the princess.

I know I have said this before, but I love, love, love it so much.
Credit: pleasefindthis
I write the love letters you never got, the ones you never sent. And I'll throw these words out there like confetti at the wedding you and I never had.

Johnny, I cry for you. Will, she will die for you

1 comment:

kurtsbean said...

Thank you for opening your eyes to the world of commercial whores, & read what I sent you on the space. ;]